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I’m a thinker. Always have been. Always will be.

Everyday I think about what I can do to make things better. For myself. For my kids. For those close to me. I’m an honest person and I’m nice. I’m not in-your-face-sticky-cinnamon-bun-sweet nice, but I’m nice. And sometimes being nice can can be both a blessing and a downfall.

Everything happens for a reason.

Don’t take things personally because it isn’t you, it’s them.

It all works out in the end.

I tell myself those little nuggets of goodness all the time because honestly? They’re true. We may not know why things happen the way they do, but there is always a reason and because of this unknown reason, things work out. They simply do. People act a certain way not because you’ve done something to them, rather because they have done something to themselves.

I work hard and I’m hard on myself. Aren’t we our own worst critic?

I also know, sometimes on the edge of being too late, when enough is enough. When it’s time for a break. To take things slow. To step back. Sure it means a little less contact with the outside world and yes, some deadlines get pushed aside. But it’s only temporary and things are definitely not forgotten or left by the wayside.

It’s called balance.

I’m excited at how my business is growing. I’ll be even more excited when it’s steady and my slow season is only two or three months in length and not six or seven.

Dreaming of new ways to be creative through photography keeps me going and I’ll give them a shot. I know it all won’t be be received with open arms but that’s the risk one takes. Especially when it comes to art and I truly believe that photography is art.

Being creative with what I have and mastering the use of what I already own is key.

I don’t need all the fancy lenses.

I don’t need my own studio.

I don’t need to be booked so solid that I fear my clients will look at me as if I see them as another notch on my camera strap verses real people who have chosen me to take time and capture a piece of their life.

What I do need is the freedom to grab my camera, be appreciated, be trusted and given the opportunity to be an even mix of who you see on the outside and who I am on the inside.

Because I know that being real, is the only way to be.